crudescrie.
Sunday, March 28, 2010 @ 5:07 AM
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"We had said goodbye so many times before, but somehow our paths always managed to cross and we ended up in each other’s arms. But now when we said this goodbye. I have this feeling that I will never see you again. And that really hurts because I know that we are meant to lead our own separate lives. And I honestly don’t wanna cross your path in the future ‘cause I don’t want all these feelings to come back and have to try and get over you all over again."had a lot of thinking to do, still, on the way back without neohpeishan and sutingg.had a little h2h with neonpinknails today and had the mini-est h2h with fatsayz during/after campfire.i realise what i thought was stupid. but i dont know what i feel anymore.and when i say that i mean it. because when i say something and not mean it, i know it, but now i know i mean it when i say im not sure still, after all this time.i need a little knock, i need to get away from all this.if i were grown up i would pack my bags and send myself off alone on a little holiday to some quiet island where i dont need to see people being happy. i just need to be with myself for a bit, without the hustle and bustle, and it wont even matter if i dont do anything thinking at all.i just need to be myself for a little while, away from anyone else.i need someone who can understand, but who else is there who doesnt understand?maybe i dont need that. i dont know what i need anymore.i need a break from this all.i said i'd change but i never got to leave behind the past me, its always catching up on meand i know im still living a world i cant leave behind.what is all this? i might appreciate it if my parents just pack me up and send me off t somewhere else to study.
i am sorry. but it'd be better off for you, too.